Poetry

The inner workings of a poetic soul.


Poetry: (keep in mind, I haven't written any poetry in like... a year, and up until the 27th one, they were written in high school, =P) These are listed in Chronological Order, even though I only have dates for some of them, I numbered them when I wrote them, so I know which ones came before others. Sonnets: This is something I did for a class once, based on the barebone definition of a Sonnet (a 14 line poem about love)

Keep in mind, these poems are MY property, and may not be reproduced anytime, anywhere, unless you have my prior consent. Violators will be prosecuted!

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As I watch the stars in the moon lit sky, I think of you
It is your kiss that I wish for on the falling star
It is that, that would give me eternal bliss
But you love another
Now it is my tears that fall like blood in rain
Tis my heart that is in constant pain
But it is the thought of you that keeps me strong
Gives me Hope so that I can go on
But it is your love.... that I wish for
And all I'm wishing for
Is that one kiss

Longing For Love:

I met a girl one day
She took my breath away
She is prettier than the sun and the moon
But I have found that my love is inopportune
I have found, she loves another
She loves someone, who loves her not
But it is I who wishes for her love
For she is my angel who comes from above
And it is I that would do anything for her love

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Did you ever love someone who did not love you back?
Sometimes you laugh, sometimes you cry
If you had to choose life or death, you would rather die.
When you think of that, it makes you sad and blue.
And it feels like there is no one that can comfort you
And if that person loved you, it would put you into a life of eternal bliss
How do I know this?
Because I love you...

Searching For Love:

While searching for my true love
I met a girl whom was from above
Yet I did not know she was the one for me
And while searching in the wrong direction
She stayed by my side
And when I was about to give up my search for love
I realised it was her who always showed compassion
She gave me support for all of my actions
And then it came to me
We were meant to be
So I realised my search for love was finished even before it had started
And it was for her arms that I departed
For it is her who came from above
And she is the girl that I love

Recovering From Blindness:

During my search for love I was blind
I had made many mistakes
The one I had thought earlier was an angel had proven to be an illusion
And the love that we had was only a dillusion
So once again I search for my one true love
And I turn again to the one from above
And so I return to an old love... the one who I believe is from above
But she still does not feel for me as I feel for her
No matter what I do or what I say
When I take one step forward, she takes two steps away
All the words I say remain unspoken
And it is my heart that remains broken
But I still believe in my love for her
And I will continue with that love
The love for the girl who hast come from above

Hoping For Love:

Once again my search for love has been in vain
Once again I wound up having my heart split in twain
Once again I find another who is more beautiful than the whole of the world
For she is more precious than any gem, her personality is that of pure gold
Her eyes are more beautiful than the sun and the moon
Those eyes have lifted me from my deepest gloom
Her smile is brighter than the suns bright beams
She seems as if she had come from my dreams
I would give up anything for her kiss
That kiss would give me eternal bliss

Mysterious Figure:

Once again, on my search for love, I have found another who has come from above
Her skin is as soft and beautiful as the gentle dove
Soon I hope I will kiss her lucious lips
Caress her skin with my finger tips
Her beauty is unsurpassed, even by the moon and the sun
Don't stop reading now I have only just begun
Her eyes are as beautiful as the stars, shining brightly in a moonlit sky
I would rather die then see a tear drop from those eyes
My love for her cannot be explained
But not it is her love I must obtain
You see, my love for this girl is pure and true
This girl is different from any other girl
Because this girl I love so much
Is you...

A Rose:

A gift for you... a rose
Some are red
Some are blue
None can compare to the beauty of you
For so long I have hidden the feelings I have inside
But now I have no place to hide
Thinking of you makes me feel like I'm flying above
And every day I wish for your love

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Recently I find myself falling in and out of love
With a girl from above
For she is the one whom I love so much
Yet she is the one whom I am forbidden to touch
Because she is with one of my friends
Oh, how all this pain I feel never ends!
I show her all my love and affection
And it is he whom gets all the attention
However, she admits that the relationship they have is not true
Yet she does not want to make him cry and feel blue
And it is knowing all this that is causing my pain that never ends
For I know that it should be she and I together
But I also realise how pure she is altogether
And it is these things that bring me eternal suffering
But it is this that keeps me pondering
Why do I put up with all this pain and suffering?
The answer is as simple as this
Because I love you...

Mental Conflict:

My state of mind right now is that of a confused man, torn apart by his own thoughts
Ones I have met before have been full of empty promises and empty loves
No one can ever understand the emptiness throughout my soul
There is not one word that can sum up the misery floating all through my head, day after day
My heart once was filled with light, yet now is filled with darkness
The kind of darkness that can only be defeated by the light of one with pure intentions
Darkness that can only be beaten by the light of true love
Light that can only come from a being from above
Yet as I think of this, I wonder if a person like that even exists
I am alone in the world of darkness that is my heart, with no one to turn to
No one to love me, no one for me to hold on to
These are the thoughts that fill my empty heart, the thoughts that tear my soul apart
I cannot hold them off for much longer
For everyday that goes by, they get stronger
Yet I still have one light of hope, one flicker of light breaking through the darkness
It is the knowledge that one day, that person will come along
A person weilding the light of true love
She will break through the darkness that has invaded my soul
It is then I will be freed from the darkness' control
Until then I lay, asleep in my bed, with my thoughts, and my dreams
Torn apart by my own thoughts, waiting
Patiently waiting
I cannot wait for very long, for my patience is being worn thin by the darkness
I must depend on that light I have left, to keep the darkness from consuming my soul
The light is enough to keep me going, but the darkness will always be waiting there
Just like I am waiting
Waiting for she who will rid my heart of darkness, and replace it with the eternal light of love
Waiting for the soul from above... one who will give me her heart
But until then I am being torn apart
And until then, the light will be dormant, inside of my soul
Waiting for someone to free me from the darkness' control

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As I pace through my house, thinking about my life
I realise that lack of love is the cause of my strife
Everytime I get close to love
It slips through my fingers like a single grain of sand
I can never seem to find the problem at hand
On the other hand, it seems as if I am the root of the problem
Irony's deep eyes glare at me, seeming to laugh in my face
It makes me want to forever leave this place
No matter what I say, or what I do
Love seems to always leave me blue
It starts with one thing, ends with another
When I start to think of it, I shudder
Love has both its pleasures and its pain
Love has begun to drive me insane
No matter how much I hope, how much I plea
Love always seems to make me bleed
I sit here on my bed, thoughts of love filling my head
As I sit here, tears fill my eyes instead
Hoping I will find a love so true
However, thoughts fill my head that say love is untrue
Saying that love will never come to you
No matter what I do, or what I say
When I move forward, love moves away
I wonder whether I will find someone to love
Someone who will relieve my sadness, relieve my strife
Someone who will change my life...

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Just recently I was about to give up on hope for love
Until someone special came into my life
She has beauty that is beyond compare, with a personality that of an angel
The sound of her voice, the feel of her hand, they keep me going from day to day
If I am feeling sad, shes always by my side to make it better, as I am for her
Never have I cared for someone as much as I do her...
Eternity can pass by in minutes when I'm around her, I'm crazy for her...

Demons:

Staring at the moon, my heart fills with anguish
All the things I do in life end in pain
In the past I've been fighting off the Demons residing deep in my soul
Now I fear that they will take control
I try to fight, but I've got nothing left
The Demons start to rise, deep within my soul
The one thing that can destroy these demons seems to also be the cause of my pain
As I sit thinking, the Demons are tearing my soul apart
I look outside, and the once bright moon has turned blood red
As it starts to rain, tears fall from my face like blood in between raindrop
The one bit of hope I have left inside is the thoughts that rip me apart
My light seems to flicker out, as does the hope in my heart
The more I try to save myself, the more the Demons take over
I sit by, watching a candles flame...like my heart... slowly flickering out
I try my hardest to keep the light from going out... yet no matter how hard I try, I accomplish nothing
No matter what I do, no matter what I say, my heart always ends up in pieces
My soul screams out in agony as my heart once did for love
The things htat used to cause me please, now cause me pain
Feeling the way I do is driving me insane
My own mind seems to haunt me
The Demons tell me to give in, to give up
And I want to give in, but something remains within
It is the light that once burnt bright, it is the only thing left to fight
The light is flickering, but that is enough to hold the Demons off for a little while
But the battle that rages on between my heart and the Demons is tearing me apart
I don't think I have the strength left to go on by myself anymore
The force that the Demons hold within my soul grows by the day
No matter what I do, they will not go away
I will keep fighting, but my strength alone cannot destroy them
The demons will soon consume my body as well as my soul
Soon the demons will take control...

Painful Lies:

I have been through a lot of pain in the past
I find things that make me happy
But they never seem to last
I was about to give up hope on happiness
When I found someone to give me that, and more
She made promises of love, saying I meant more to her than anything
These promises were lies, I fell for them... and for her
In the end, the person I thought had true feelings for me
Ended up to be the person feeding my misery
I try not to listen, to not let myself get hurt
But the more I try not to, the more it kills me
These feelings are tearing me up deep inside
I've been here before... but its never hurt this badly before
Everytime I feel happy again, something brings pain back into my life
I realise that life cannot be lived without pain, but no one deserves this anguish
I retreat to the shadows, to hide from the pain
But no matter where I try to hide, my efforts are in vain
I cannot escape the misery inside, it drives me insane
It upsets me so much, that I break down and cry
It seems I cannot escape this pain, no matter how hard I try
My heart cannot take anymore... why must I be the one always filled with sorrow?
The answers to these questions I cannot find
The answers lie deep inside my mind
I have searched there before... to no avail
When will I find the answers to the questions?
Will I lose or will I prevail?
Only time will tell...

A Cure For The Curse:

Am I cursed?
To live life... watching the things I want just fly by?
Every time I get closer, it gets better each time
But every time, it ends up in sadness again
I try to recover, but it seems as if my life pushes me right back down again
Its as if Irony looks me in the eyes, and laughs
Its like...it will give me a little bit of what I want... then take it all away right afterwards
Is it my cruel fate to have this happen?
Only time will tell... but for now, I shall keep trying
I wont let fate win... I will not live my life this way
Fate is a powerful force... but I have a power that can conflict that of Fate
The power of will
The will to get better, the will to make my own destiny and not be controlled by Fate
These are my thoughts, however
I may not be able to fight off that for much longer
But for now, I will
Things will get better eventually... I know that
However, thoughts of failure and of sadness lay deep in my subconscience
Another thing I must fight
I must not let myself give into those thoughts... or to Fate
The thoughts... they have consumed me once again
Showing me the thoughts I once had about things getting better, were just illusions
Illusions to make me think things will get better, and I will recover from this sadness
But they are only delaying the inevitable
I may find something to make me happy again, but all things must end in time, all things must die
The things I seek to find happiness, all seem to break down before me, all to be destroyed
Fate again, showing its true powers...filling me with my never ending saddness
Friends...family... they all try to drive me out of it...to no avail
I am sick of it... so I act like I am happy, sick of being pitied
I want my life to become happy again... like it once was
But that seems impossible...all the things I find to make me happy...are just people trying to take advantage of my
emotions...putting up an act of fake emotion... while I, with true feelings... am stuck here
Will I ever find someone with my true emotions, someone to show me the feeling I long for?
Right now that seems as the answer will be no
But I guess I won't know that for sure... my life seems to have its turns for the worst, as well as the best
One more than the other... but one for the best may be coming soon
I am close to just taking my emotions... and locking them away... maybe it is them that are causing this
Maybe its all my fault... from the very start
What have I done to anyone, to deserve this?
Why is it that everyone else, everyone that lies, and decieves, get to find happiness?
Even the ones similar to me, ones with seemingly true intentions and emotions... they find happiness as well
Why am I stuck back here? Why is it I that is always sad?
This is the wonder that stays in my head... always there... haunting me
Plauging my mind all day... why can't I escape from these thoughts?
Sometimes they bring me to the point of tears, other times to the breaking point
I try to deal with them... but all I am doing is holding them back, eventually they will come out
I find things to do... to make me forget about these thoughts, and feelings
But even they eventually run out
Sometimes I feel like finding a dark corner... and just laying there... and watching everyone else pass by
But even that wouldn't help me
I guess I'll just sit here again... ever waiting for something to come along and cure the curse...

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Thinking of times from my past
Thinking of loves that did not last
I was truly happy then

When I think of the times
It makes me want to cry
I sit here, and wonder why
Why did it have to end?
Why was I given happiness
Only to have it taken from me again

Many relationships have passed
But none of them have lasted
The ones that do, are plagued with sadness
And also end
I try to fix them, but to no avail
It seems that I will never prevail

Broken promises, and broken hearts
I seem to always end up that way, from the start
Happiness comes with, but then becomes stray
Then everything starts slipping away

I wish that I could go back to the good times
Or even some of the bad...
I would do anything to receieve the happiness I once had

Life goes on, as all things do
But still lonelyness plagues me
And still love evades me
What can I do to escape from this loneliness I feel inside?

Sometimes I just want to crawl into a dark corner
And just lay there, watching my surroundings, hoping to find an answer
But even in hiding, I would not be safe
The loneliness always knows where to find me
I try to escape it
But everytime I get closer away from it
It becomes drawn further back to me

I try to move on, and forget about the past
But as love does, that never seems to last
I lay in my bed, crying myself to sleep
Thinking of times when I didnt have to hide
Thinking of these brings tears to my eyes
I wish I could go back to those times
I wish I could again escape the lonelyness I feel
To feel those again, would be surreal
Then maybe I would escape this hell I feel
If I could find someone to quench this yearning
Then maybe I would escape the feeling
Of loneliness

Letting Go:

As I sit and think about you, I realise I have made lots of mistakes
Ones that I sometimes hate myself for
But, I also realise that I have given you lots of things as well, one of them, my heart
I've wanted nothing but to be with you, but it seems that everytime I try, you push me further away
I realise that may be my fault, and I try to redeem myself, and try to help ease your pain inside
But still, you push me away
You still say you care for me, and have feelings for me
But your actions seem to say otherwise
After everything is said and done, I am left behind, in the dust, wading through the blood in the raindrops
Yet I still do not give up, like I have on many things in the past
I assure myself things will work out, but that never seems to last
I sit here, day by day, and all I can do, is think of you
I try to rid myself of these thoughts, that are plaguing my head
While they are pleasant... they are also painful
For while the memories of you I have, are wonderful
The fact that I cannot relive the feelings I once shared with you, causes my pain
And no matter how hard I try, I cannot, nor do not want to, escape this pain
Because I still tell myself that things will come out good in the end
While the promise of the revival of the feelings I had in the past is great
The pain of not being able to have them, is even greater, and grows greater day by day
And in realising this, I try to think of a solution, to end my pain
And only one thing seems to be the solution, to let go of you
Yet while I want to, for it will rid me of the pain plaguing my everyday life
Letting you go, would also cause me much strife
So I sit here, at a standstill...
Wondering, whether or not, to let you go...

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I've been searching this earth, for many years
Looking for one to be able to erase my fears
Every time I find one able to do so
The bond between us ends up in sorrow
So cold, so dark...
Will anyone be able to unlock the chambers of my heart?

A darkness enshrouds my soul, encasing me in sadness
Memories haunt my mind, causing me madness
I have found one capable of alleviating my pain
But all my efforts to be with her, are in vain
I watch over her, waiting for the time she will be mine
But she loves another, her and I will not be intertwined...

Forevermore:

He turns the corner, and he sees the face of one he once loved
One whom he once thought to be beloved
Now that face causes him pain
As well as the memories being stored in his brain
He sees her arms around another
He is in pain, yet he still loves her
He tries to hide, to run in fear
And as he runs, he sheds a tear
A tear of blood, that falls to the floor
And now his memories haunt him, forevermore
Everywhere he goes, he hears a tale
A tale of her new love, one which will not fail
He tries to shut it out, but to no avail
It seems his love will not prevail
His thoughts betray him, he tries not to hear them
He witnesses them together, yet tries not to see them
He runs away again, this time right up his stairs
Another tear falls, but nobody cares
He enters his room, quickly closing the door
Laying on the floor, only to stay there...
Forevermore...

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My inner soul was once dark and dull
I once thought I had lost control
Empty promises, and empty loves, all turned my heart to stone
I spent all too many days alone...

Time goes by, feelings change
I look at the clock, it seems so strange
It's been such a short time, yet it seems longer
I was at my weakest, yet now I feel much stronger

I once had to run, to try and hide
Thanks to you, those needs did subside
All that was once taken, I thought I would never get back
You have given me what I once had, and much more than that

You talk, you listen, you give me things I've always dreamed of
Your heart of gold, your mind, your touch, your kiss...
Things for which my soul has been forever wishing of
Whenever I am not around you, it is your presence that I miss...

When you cry, I feel your pain
It haunts me like a ghost, trying to drive me insane
I would do anything for you, just to stop those tears
I will always be here for you, to help you overcome your fears
I know you would do the same for me, that much is true
As is the love, that I have for you

Ai shiteru, Rebekka-chan. Itsumo no Jinmirai (roughly translates to "I love you Rebecca. Always and Forever" Yeah, right...)

Stiffness Of The Mold:

I've always been one to believe in hope, hoping for things to turn out right...
But being this way, and listening to what they say, has been whats caused my plight...
Saying "It'll be ok someday, just believe."
It just sounds like something you would find on a matchbook sleeve

I try, over and over again, to believe in what they say
But whenever I look for someone to believe in, everyone just turns away...
My emotions take control, and I play to their rules, and believe in what they believe
Yet I just end up getting hurt again, its almost too much to conceive

"Just believe, and all will be well."
Those words have caused me all of this hell
I hold it in, believing what I was told
Hoping that she would be the one to break the mold

Circumstances change things, and she is caught between two
Love that would cause the end of my hope, all too soon
I tried to believe again, and emotions soon chose the answer
I fell in love, and thought things would be changed by this Cancer

All went well, for a small amount of time
Then pain insued, payment for my committed crime
Two loves haunted her, mine and another
She couldn't choose one, could not have both, even though one wronged her

I give her my all, my heart, body, and soul, and stay by her side
She still refuses to choose, and I even sacrifice my pride
I fall deeper into loves trap, and hope for the best
But doing so, has caused a gaping hole in my chest

My love for her grows deeper, as she decides to send us both packing
My emotions say things will be alright, my logic says I should've seen this coming
The rest remains a mystery, for it has yet to unfold
Yet it seems to good to be true, as the stiffness returns to the mold...

Loves Divided:

Another promise to be broken
Another month of loves unwanted token
She betrays the two, and finds another
I realize what I've done, and how much I've loved her
Her grasp on him, tight enough to hold back hell
While her grasp on me, didn't work so well
I hid my mind from her, in an effort to shield myself
Seems I was right, letting her in would have meant she would use it for herself

"Always and Forever"
A phrase to haunt my soul for all time
T'was a mistake to believe in it, to think HE deceived her
While in reality she deceived us both, dropped us both like another dime
Did I mean nothing? Was all of my efforts yet again in vein?
I wonder these thoughts, gazing out the glass, arms on the windowpane...
"She did it to him, whats stopping her from doing it to you?"
I never wanted to believe, that their words would come true...

Two weeks of pleasure, exchanged for another few of hell
Sacrificng all dear to me, friends, pride, and even my heart
Walking down a dark hallway, the rain starts to fall
I try to think of the past, to make things better
But all it does, is make my soul cringe in pain
Irony, a fate of all who love...
I now pay the debt for my crime, and now learn my lesson
Not wanting to love, was what my brain told me to do before
In its stead, I listened to my heart, and the pain I feel is the result

I was always there for her, when she needed me
But now it is I that need her, and where the hell is she?
The same place she was, when in his stead, with another
Ironic, that it was me the first time, now someone else
More and more I feel the pain of my crime, and I know his sorrow
I never want to feel like this again, nor will I be involved in such villainy
What I did was wrong, the reprocussions even worse
I still face them, now having lost more than I ever gained
Friends, no longer friends
Loves, no longer loving
Only left with the ones I can truly trust
Which, in itself, isn't a very large group

I am left in the darkness, hiding in the fog
Backed into a corner, where only the rain is my company
The tears there, made of blood...
Moonlight, my only consolation...
I look to my heart, where memories of her bide their time
Looking to the ring, she bid me hold onto..
I feel the pain of her presence...
The kind of pain I always felt emit from her, even locked in my embrace
Deeper than normal pain, seemed like it was of something greater
However, it was just another illusion, her playing with my senses
Her embrace, always destined to find the way to another
My fate, also shown embedded in darkness, never to return...

No matter how hard I've tried in the past, I always end up slashed into pieces
It doesn't matter what anyone says or does, thats the way things will be
Love will always be my undoing, lack of, and inthusiasm for...
Trust, another of my downfalls, is something always tested, always true
Most have used it against me, and I always end up on the receiving end of the most pain
Dragged down the same old hallway, with the same feelings, different faces
The same black cloud travels nearby my head, ready to rain upon it
Tears fall, along with the rain, under the influence of the cloud
The cloud known as love, which causes the rain, also causes my sorrow
No matter how far I run from the cloud, it always seems to follow
Split again, from the love I hold so dear
Should I run again, or risk the clouds torment one more time?
That, will be a question which will be answered with the passing of the rain
The passing of the love, which runs through my heart, and which entrenches my soul...

It will pass, like all of the others that I once thought to be true
All of the others that proved to be false...
The passing, is the hardest, and also longest part
Especially with love such as this, love from the depths of my soul
It's this kind of love, that is the hardest to pass over
It is also that kind, that hurts the worse, when you believe in it
Only to find out it is false...
That will cause things to slow, instead of hasten like I wish it would
It is going to be another long, long hallway full of darkness
But I've been through this before, what would make things different from the rest?
I've faced false love before, and yes it hurt, but its something I got over...
However, this is much different from the rest, nothing between us seemed false
Until we were reunited at our place of introduction
Which would also be the place of our loves destruction
I would soon see how he treats her, and out of the goodness of my heart try to save her
When in reality it would be I that would need saving, later finding myself sobbing
What I did was wrong, there's no doubt about it
I've lost many close friends because of it all, now I have very little to turn to
Only my true friends, who always will be by my side, are the ones who help me turn the tide
But there is nothing they can do, heart and brain my only guide...

After everything was said and done, she still turned to another
Not the one who treated her wrong, nor I, who treated her right
She found someone new altogether, my plight falling deeper than before
"I will not choose" her mantra, a phrase I would learn to hate
She did choose, for a short term, and now she makes truth to the phrase
Her reason in choosing, to prevent harm from the both of us
Yet she ended up hurting us anyway, what was the point in the first place?
I believed everything she said, all the promises that ended up broken
Yet everything was just another illusion, something I wished to believe
I wanted things to be true, yet they were just too good
I return to my room, and sit down in the corner, my face covered in blood
My heart shattered into pieces again, from the weight of the lies
I try to sleep, and cannot fathom the things running throughout my brain
The things that would once calm me, or make things better, no longer working...
I pass out from exhaustion, as I wait for my time to come
The time when the pain will go away, when the blood will disappear
When I can live my life, without the fear of lies, or the fear of falsities
It is then, during my slumber, that I realise this time will never come...
That my hell, has just begun...

Secret Message Poem:

I once was lost, deep in darkness, forever in sadness

I loved others, but found being loved to be far more challenging
O' foolish was I, to think their promises were true
You've vanquished these thoughts and painful memories...
Lost to yet be found, I have been found by thee

Dark as night, my soul once was...
With your help, your guidance...
I've found my utopia, thanks to your love...

All my love, resides inside of you now.
Time together is eternal, I feel as if I could fly
I live because of what you've shown me
The eternal light of love...
Crystal clear is my path, and it is together with you
Enclosed in your arms is where I forever wish to stay
I always wish to be with you

itsudemo no jinmirai... (roughly translates to "always and forever", of course, that phrases meaning expired, didn't you know that? eternity expires! =P)

The Search:

For these long years I have searched
Searched for someone to love
During that search, I've met many
Yet most have done nothing but hurt me
Time of darkness, times of sadness
The past used to cause me to die inside
I realize that they've not done it on purpose
Yet the pain still remained
The moments we spent together, while they ended in misery
Once were full of happiness, now reminding me of pain

We've worked hard to get on the path we now stride
Conquered many obstacles, and you are now by my side
I no longer need a place to hide...
To none before you, have I opened my mind
None before thee have made me feel a love of this kind
I look into your eyes, and my heart melts inside
The touch of your hand, the taste of your mouth
These are the things that keep me safe, that keep me awake
Each breathe I take with you, fills my heart with light from above
Our hearts beat in sync, forever to enwrap us with love

It is now that I call off my search
My search for someone to love
I've no need to look anymore
Most don't see it, as well as I do
Times of hapiness, times of joy
The past no longer kills me
I realize that my search is over, I've found someone to love
The pain no longer remains
The moments we now spend together, feel like an eternity
To forever be filled with happiness, only to remind me of our everlasting love

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Two souls bound by love
Forged together by stars above
Never knew they were meant to be
Yet that is how things came to be
Both loves and best friends
Their love is eternal, never to end
They bring meaning to each-others lives
And nothing can match what they feel inside

They've been through misery and pain
Been through enough to drive one insane
But being together makes it worth it to them
For from the worst pain is where the best love does stem
Problems arise, but nothing is without those
And from fixing those problems is where their strength arose
They've had their doubts, but those have floated away
And with each-other forever, is where they wish to stay

In each-others embrace, time seems to end
And when together, all rules seem to bend
The two are invulnerable to all harm with each-other nearby
They feel the others pain, sometimes causing the other to cry
Past experiences, doubts and fears, their only problem
But through working together, they have solved them
Their thoughts are one, as are their heartbeats and breath
Nothing could bring their love to rest, not even ones death

A Vampire's Conscience:

Alone in eternity...
Just dust on the ground
Alone in my darkness
Not even a sound

Living forever
Inescapable pain
The blood in my teardrops
Keeps flowing like rain

Alone in eternity...
Pain from loves long past
Alone in my darkness
All the lives that never last

I stalk in the darkness
Never to walk in the light
To live alone in shadow
Forced to thrive amongst the night

Alone in eternity...
Constantly wandering the earth
Alone in my darkness
Considering my worth

A quest for demise
A search for blood
I've lost myself to life eternal
I'm always drowning in my own flood

Alone in eternity...
Plenty of time to think
Alone in my darkness
Throughout my life, I've learned not to blink

Someone wanders down my path
The road ahead is what I see
To have the chance to make the choice
To choose the way for us to be...

Untitled (Past):

Life, such a wonder it is
But for me, it is much more of a torture
Some say it is a gift, some say it's all a plan
If life was a gift for me, someone please return it!
Life in darkness, filled with pain
It is enough to drive one insane

If my life is someone's "divine plan"
Then someone really needs to fix it
Day by day, betrayed by everyone I love
With no one to help me through it
I look for ways out, but to no avail
With everything that I do, I always seem to fail.

It seems like there is nothing here for me
And I wonder if there ever will be
With only myself to depend on
I have not much to lose
Why do I stay here?
Is there even a purpose for me?
Will there ever be something to set me free?

Every trace of love in my life is slowly dissolving
And with each step I take, I feel like I'm de-evolving
I make no progress with each new face
They all leave me anyway, disappearing without a trace
I no longer wish to stay here, coveted in fear
Waiting for that day for someone to set things right
I too tire of wandering alone, in the night.

No one will ever come for me
So it is I who will have to set myself free
Free from this lonely and cold void I live
If only I had my chance to show the world
To show them I'm not just this shadow in their lives
To get the chance to truly be who I am
They'll never give me the chance, why should I try?
None of them would even care if I just up and died!

There's an idea, I'll show them all!
No one will care, anyone at all
Until I'm gone, they'll see then
Just how much I meant to them
I'll be gone, it'll be their fault!
For not giving me chances to even breathe or talk!

One day I realize, I do have something to keep me here
I have friends, friends that actually do hold me dear
Friends I have fun with, and will grow old with
I still haven't found the kind of love I wish to find
But for now I have enough to sustain my mind
Nothing will keep me from living now, not even myself
It's a great thing life, filled with pleasure and pain
But no longer enough to cause me to go insane
I've learned to keep things down, yet I still do frown
But I do know that I have some things to live for

Untitled (Present or "Beginning"):

In the beginning, there were three
A guy, her, and I
She was with him, but they are now apart
I seemed to have sparked something in her heart

She's so beautiful, soft and kind
I love her so much, it boggles my mind
But because she left him, does that mean she loves me?
She says so, but something's there that should not be

She does love me, but there is still something with him
She tells me otherwise, and says the same to herself
But still there is something that makes things look grim
Something that makes me ponder the worth of myself

I love her, but I am still hurt inside
I wish she could be mine, but their ties still bend her mind
I've done more than enough, even sacrificed my pride
What is left that keeps her from being mine?

Her love keeps me strong
As the days go on
I still feel what is there
But she has helped me suppress my fear

This is no longer the beginning, for now there are two
Only she and I left to hang in the balance
Times are changing, and so are we
Things are looking better, as is the way we choose to be

Our love becomes more powerful
Each and every day
And we seem to please each other
In every possible way
With every part of our body, mind, heart and soul
Together, we have both taken control

Anguish and pain still accompany us
For we have many things to learn
But things continue to get better
As the candle of our love continues to burn

Untitled:

I'm sorry for all the tears you've cried
But wasn't it me that wiped them from your eye?
I'm sorry for the times I've made you mad
But please, try to remember the great times we've had
I'm sorry for all the trouble I've gotten you in all this while
But it was always just to see your happy smile
I'm sorry for the things I've put you through
But remember that everything I do is only for you

I know there are times when I'm not the greatest boyfriend
But no matter what, I always try to make it up in the end
I know I've done and said many things that were wrong
But I know now you were always with me, and have been, all along
I know that things will be hard for us in futures near
But I know we will always hold each other dear
I know that all the apologies in the world can't make things up to you
But I just want you to know that I will always love you

Untitled:

Looking back on the loves that didn't last
Each one seemed to end equally as fast
Now there is one person that I hold dear
And thanks to her, I no longer have fear

With every breath we take, our love grows
We breath together, we cry together
With each other is where we wish to stay
We both reap the seeds that the other sows

In each others embrace, we love to lie
Always and Forever, how long we'll last
Shes already made me forget the past
Our emotion gives us power to fly
Never do I want to leave her side now
With her I stay, as long as time allows